Today I am presenting at poem I wrote 12 years ago….. when I was feeling guilty about my capabilities as a carer. I’m posting here, and thinking someone in a similar situation may read these words. Please do not feel guilty or inadequate, you’re not failing, and there’s really only so much that is possible. You’re not alone in having these insecure feelings, and please understand, us carer’s all go through these self doubts and confusing thoughts.

Sorry for You

Sorry I was not always there for you

I am sorry for your life of misery

I am so sorry, for writing this unhappy story

I could not find your holy grail

That sacred cup of water to cure the frail

Sorry I could not help or heal you

I am sorry for your life being wrong

I am so sorry, for playing this wordless song

I could not find your holy grail

That sacred cup of wine to cure the frail

Sorry I did not travel every path for you

I am sorry for your life’s that is lost

I am so sorry, for holding this worthless cross

I could not find your golden grail

That sacred cup of blood to cure the frail

Sorry I could not be stronger for you

I am sorry, for your world that could not be

I am deeply sorry, for walking on an empty sea

I could not find your silver grail

That angel’s vessel of purity, to no avail

My new book “Tullawalla”, is due to be released on 30th March, and for preorder, here are the links

Barnes and Noble..  Tullawalla by Ivor Steven, Kerri Costello, Hardcover | Barnes & Noble® (barnesandnoble.com) 

Amazon..  Amazon.com: Tullawalla eBook: Steven, Ivor, Costello, Kerri, Harris, patricia: Books 

www.books2read.com/Tullawalla

Ivor Steven (c) March 2021

G’day, and welcome to my blog site. My name is Ivor Steven, I live in Geelong, Australia. I’m an ex-industrial chemist, and a retired plumber, and a former Carer of my wife(Carole), for 30 years, who suffered from severe MS. I Write poetry about those personal thoughts, throughout and beyond my life as a Carer. I’ve been blogging for over 2 years, and writing poems for 19 years. Of course a lot of my poems are about my favourite subject Carole, but since I’ve been blogging my writings have become quite varied, humourous, mystical, observational, and even a few monster/horror poems. View all posts by ivor20