Come sit with me at the café. The rains have started in Malaysia, its wet and gloomy outside my window, this sets the perfect mood for me. I have a strong aromatic Americano by my side. Come sit with me for a while. I need you to inspire me today.
I had no clue where to begin this week. What to say or write, don’t you have days and weeks like that too? When you have much to write but it gets all confused and doesn’t come out the way you first imagined it would? I had such a week.
Many things happened this week that slowed my momentum. I frequently suffer from compassion fatigue and it can manifest physically. The burden of grief and sorrow takes a toll and I have to retreat. We had a faculty meeting and a trauma medicine doctor shared how he distances himself from his patients because he fears he won’t be practising good medicine if he gets emotionally connected. It’s his way of giving his best. Out of fear comes good practice and care. How bizarre we humans are?
I strongly believe the universe whispers to us and conspires to bring us together, heavily influenced by Paulo Coelho, his book The Alchemist and my spiritual journey as a young adult, coincidences are supernatural to me.
A coincidence for me this week was our Tuesday Writing Prompt with the theme “your greatest fear” and later my meeting at work about coping with fear. Both seemed to be the whispers of the universe at this moment in time.
The universe does conspire.
Thank you Devereaux for this prompt that allowed us to write and share.
An Acrostic Poem Prompt from Devereaux revealed a few interesting things. The writers said some of the following: “That Fear itself is a fear. We have Atychiphobia or a fear of failure. Then there is also Phobophobia or the fear of phobias. The mind is a complex thing and we either control it or let it control us. Sometimes we need help. Sometimes we can go it alone.
Someone wrote about the fear of Blindness, metaphorically or literally it scares some of us to be in darkness.
We also fear that which is physically present in our world, like Snakes! And other creatures that fly or crawl, creatures smaller than us but evoke an irrational fear. It is nature’s way of preserving all her species I suppose. Boundaries we shouldn’t cross to endanger ourselves and others.
We also fear forming bad habits like Complacency and negative thoughts like Cowardice. I urge you to check out the contributions by the various writers in the comment section here.
I added to this jigsaw of words, I said I feared “Nothing” and in the context of this writing prompt that is true. Deep loss and grief made me realise there is nothing more I can lose that I fear I cannot handle. I owe a lot of who I am to my father, and I talk and write about him because he brought me up to be fearless. But I let my father down. I lived my entire married life living in fear, it is not my story alone so I don’t write about it, it isn’t fair to the other party. But I don’t live with that fear any longer.
The Tuesday Writing Prompts are an amazing thing to me, the things we say in a flash are true confessions. They say let a psychiatrist read your book before you publish it because you may divulge more than you may want to. I don’t think I would let a psychiatrist edit and censure my work, if I write it must be that which comes from the heart, to be shared or I don’t write about it. And once words are released into the world it becomes every body’s story.
What happened with having nothing to write about?! You see people, your words inspire me; your words and thoughts permeate my world and get under my skin. This is what being a writer or aspiring to be one is all about. Reading and absorbing stories around us helps us create and develop our own. Some stories I read are more familiar to me than others.
“high over nowhere-life arches the everywhere” ~ Rainer Maria Rilke
I share this video with you about why certain familiar narrative arcs are inherently so appealing. Our lives are stories with arcs that interests or bores; it’s a linear pathway and cyclic momentum much like being in an electromagnetic solenoid. The geeky science girl says! Watch the video and let Kurt Vonnegut tell you in his classic deadpan wit about the stories we write and how it appeals or just falls flat! I really enjoyed listening to this man. He reminds me of my dad.
Till I see you again I leave you with a special quote,
I grasped the meaning of the greatest secret that human poetry and human thought and belief have to impart. The salvation of man is through love and in love. – Viktor Frankl
Viktor Frankl lost everything important to him in the Second World War, he survived unimaginable fear and horrors, he had nothing to live for yet he went on to write from that place of deep grief and solitude to gift the world with words as a legacy of love.
Stories and fears have links; we create new events when we relinquish fears, they become a new story for us. Do you have an interesting story or is it just a lukewarm story? How will you craft your story or poetry using love to release these fears?
Have a blessed week ahead.
Hope & Light
trust your heart if the seas catch fire – e.e. cummings